Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Blah!

I have started and deleted this post oh about 100 times. I have nothing to say! The sweet little birth mom decided to parent her daughter. I did know she was having a girl...which in a way made it worst. I could picture her in my mind! I think people (especially our caseworker) are waiting for me to open up and let out all of my thoughts and feelings. I really don't have any! After we got the news Morgan and I just kind of stared at each other and both thought, What did we just go through? Was that for real? Were we that close and then not close at all.

I don't know....

What I do know is...

I have an amazing husband who I love more then ever! He was my rock! We have an amazing caseworker who I love! There were so many days that I wanted to drive to her office lay on her couch and just cry. Instead I cried on the phone, probably every day! I am surrounded by people who loves us and only want good things to happen to us!

So to sum everything up...

Morgan and I had the longest two and half weeks of our lives! Cried and screamed every day. Prayed countless times. Planned what we would do. Talked and Talked. Didn't Sleep! And now...Blah!

That Sucks!

6 comments:

Rebekah said...

I'm so sorry Brittney. I know you two will make wonderful parents someday. You're in my thoughts. Love you!

Cassie said...

That does suck. My heart breaks for you guys having to go through that. Such a whirl-wind of emotions to go deal with. But it's not all for nothing. You're being prepared for something wonderful. Hang in there. Love you lots and lots!

Meg said...

Dude! That did Suck!!!

Cindy said...

I thought for sure this would be "it"... I am so sorry Brittney and Morgan. My heart just aches for what you go through. I pray for peace for you both. I am so glad you have such an amazing relationship and you love each other so much. it is fun to witness a "true love".... how refreshing these days... xoxo

Kimberly said...

So sorry it didn't work out. I was excited when I saw Morgan's first post. I think it is really hard when you have "potential adoptions" and have to sit on pins and needles waiting and worrying about what is going to happen. I know that you guys will be great parents and your birth mother will be perfect for you. Hang in there!!

kimsueellen said...

This breaks my heart and in a way makes me very angry. This is the hard part of adoption...the hardest. LOVE YOU.