I was reading over my last blog and realized that must have been a really bad day! Like everyone I have my ups and my downs! Do I want to have children of my own? YES! Am I impatient with the fact that it will not happen and has not happen on my time? YES! Have I turned this problem over to the Lord? NO! Not really! And do you want to know why...I am scared! I am scared that if I do hand this over to my Heavenly Father I am not brave enough for whatever the Lord has in store for me. I have seen people go through such trials. I have seen families loose people far to soon to terrible diseases. I have friends who are far stronger then I am. So when I think of those people my heart is filled with Gratitude! Thank Heavens that our Lord and Savior put people on this earth who go through things hard and terrible but strangely all at different times. When one of us is weak the other is strong! I am so richly blessed in my life! I am so thankful for my husband who doesn't know what to say but kisses me gently on the forehead and tells me it will be ok! I am thankful for my family who rally together and would do anything they could to make the people they love in there lives happy! That is what this life is about! Filling it with as much good and love as you can! And with every problem there is a solution!
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Friday, April 25, 2008
Let me first start this blog by saying that I have not one intent on making anyone feel bad. I have been thinking about this a lot lately and have wanted to write about it (putting things out there in words is such therapy) but have been very hesitant because most of the people that might run across my blog are indeed in fact a part of that club.
My visiting teacher was here on Sunday and said to me that as long as we are righteous that Heavenly Father will not withhold any blessings from us. That struck a very sensitive cord for me! This coming from my very pregnant visiting teacher. She is very sweet and beautiful and has no idea that in my head I am wondering why she deserves to have a baby and I do not. I am perfectly aware that the Lord is trying to teach me something and he doesn't give us anything we can not handle. But come on... I am throwing my hands in the air!
I sit in church and look at all of the ladies my age talking with one another about how cute there babies are and what percentage in size they are and yada yada yada! I tried jumping into a conversation with two members of the club once by complimenting one of them on there new haircut. Well I was given the look! The look I have received many a time... That I don't fit into this conversation. Like heaven forbid we talk about something else.
Please believe me when I say I do not want to take away from any ones happiness I just really want some of my own. I find my self looking at other peoples blog and the pictures of there cute little families and I get so jealous! I am finding myself in a very bitter place. A place I do not want to be in. I want to be in the middle of all of the yada yada baby talk! And I swear if one more person gives me advice on how I can get pregnant I might physically loose it!
As I am writing this I am thinking about deleting it all and writing about something cheery instead. This is my very honest side! There are a lot of women out there that are going through this same thing! That is the club I am apart of! And no offense but a club I no longer want to be a member of! So to all of you women who are in the club with me...Hi my name is Brittney and I am fertility challenged!!
Posted by Brittney & Morgan at 11:57 PM
Sunday, April 6, 2008
On Saturday while Morg was at the Priesthood session Megan and I decided to do a little project. These are Magnets that we made! They were so cheap and so much fun to make. I used the scraps from paper I had and we bought the stones, glue and magnets from Roberts. They turned out so cute! I'm glad we made them Sister!
Posted by Brittney & Morgan at 1:40 PM
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
Posted by Brittney & Morgan at 8:06 PM
Well this month Morg and I decided that this month we would not eat out one time!! I know some might think that is an easy thing. We on the other hand eat out all of the time. Mainly because of long days and not wanting to cook anything and the other is school schedule. And another big reason for this challenge is that it costs so much money!! We are trying to be able to live on less. So I am going to have to think of new and exciting things. Tonight I made something new and thought I would share. It was very cheap and so so easy!! I would like to call it Mexican Lasagna
This meal could easily serve 4 but could serve 6. (pending on serving size)
You will need... (Mind you I do not measure anything so just add as you would like)
9 x9 inch square pan
1-2 chicken breasts (Pending on what you want)
1 bag of shredded Mexican mix cheese (Monterrey jack and Colby)
1 can of cream of chicken soup
1/2 bottle of your favorite salsa
1/2 cup of sour cream (Again pending on what you like)
I cut all of my tortillas into strips. (Another easy tip is I buy the big bag of chicken breast from Costco and bake them chop them up and split into portions and freeze them again. Then I can just defrost and add to anything I need them for.) Mix soup, salsa and sour cream together and use as your sauce. Layer that in Pan. Add a layer of tortilla strips. Then another layer of sauce, chicken and then cheese. (I do not spare on the cheese) Then repeat and top with tortilla strips and sauce. Cover with foil and bake at 375 for one hour. At the end add a little more cheese on top and bake until cheese on top is melted. Garnish with olives, sour cream, tomatoes (Anything you would like.) I served with some rice. (My hubby loves rice!)
Super Super Easy and actually really good. Let is stand for almost 5-10 minutes so the sauce can set and it is thick when you serve it.
Posted by Brittney & Morgan at 7:46 PM