Gratitude

Well I didn't do what I wanted to do the month of july. The month of July was a hard month for me...I found my old bitter self. She came back and stayed a while. I don't know how or what exactly snapped me out of it...I am just so grateful that I did.
Morgan and I had our sixth wedding anniversary on August 5th. We went to Portland for a week and stayed with some family. It was so nice to run away from our day to day life. I needed that break from myself!
Then when we got home our caseworker said it was that time of year that we needed to update all of our adoption records. Which made me really sad because it has been 2 years that we decided to try and adopt. When Morgan and I were sitting in our parenting classes we were listening to these couples that waited 1 year, 2 years, 3 years and we looked at each other and said, "That will not be us, This is going to happen." We were so confident that it would just be a matter of a SMALL amount of time.
We are still waiting!
My heart and mind are so full of thoughts right now that I just want to shout out to the world right now....I just don't know how to say them!