Ok...Now I am begging!

I don't know if it is just a lack of people blogging these days..or what.... But I am begging, pleading and desperately asking all of my friends and family who looks at this blog to PLEASE add our button that connects people to our adoption blog! It is so important to us and I worked really hard on that blog! Many of you also have friends that have very HIGH traffic on there blogs and that would be Awesome if they saw our button on your blog and then wanted to do the same!
Please....If you have ever thought to yourself for just a second how lucky you are to be a parent..please help me become one!

Adoption Blog

Hello Blogger Friends!!
(Dezi...it was so nice to see you on Saturday!)
I have finally created a blog dedicated for adoption purposes. I have added a link on the side that will take you there. PLEASE add to your blog and ask others add it to there's. We so appreciate all of the help we can get. Morgan and I feel so extremely blessed in our lives and have so many wonderful people in our lives. We have waited a very long time for a baby and really want this to be the year. It is so hard to have everyone know everything but...its about the process. We dream about the day we will be placed with a baby through the MIRACLE of adoption.
PLEASE help us and ask others to help us. There are thousands of couples that want to adopt and the best way to find your birth mom is to network!!
Thanks Again!!!

the link is...
www.morganandbrittneyadoption.blogspot.com

My Cutter Show

Does anyone know what I mean by cutter show? If not I will explain....
A cutter show is a TV/Movie Program that you watch and it makes you want to cut your wrists, pop your eyeballs out, throw heavy and sharp objects at the TV. Usually people close to you know what your cutter show is and when they walk into the room and catch you watching it they say, "Seriously Brittney, Why are you watching this again?" Well that might just be what I hear but others "Might" understand what I am talking about.
Well now that I have explained that.....I am about to announce my cutter show...
in 3....2.....1.....
Teen Mom
on MTV
I am obsessed with this show....obsessed might not really cut it. On Thursday we were playing with our nieces the flower shop game (explanation later). Well Morgan and I acted out an entire scene from Teen Mom and the nieces had no idea what we were talking about. They did think we were so funny though.
Teen Mom is a reality show that follows the lives of teenagers that were first on 16 and Pregnant and it has now been 2 years and they are now 18 and 19.
Well I would like to take this time to address them personally....(I know I am crazy, you do not need to tell me.)

Dear Caitlin and Tyler,

I have to list you first because you are my most very very favorite!! You two are wiser beyond your years. As a woman who prays everyday to adopt a baby, I wish that EVERY teenager in America would watch a full hour of you both. I am so proud of the choices you have made and have watched you both grow into the most wonderful, responsible people! Your little Carly will be grateful everyday for the choices you made!
When I watch the way your Mom treats you Caitlin it makes me want to move you here, put you in my guest bedroom and hug you everyday!
I cried and cried when I watched your reunion with Carly and her adoptive parents. They have so much gratitude for you both. You both have changed there lives and they will forever love you!!

Dear Maci,

It was sad to watch your break-up and I am sad that you moved away from your family and friends just to have your heart broken. You are such a good little Mom. Out of You, Farrah and Amber you are by far the best little Mom. I hope you and Ryan can co-parent together and create a happy environment for Bently.

Dear Farrah,

When you are reading a 4 page letter to your one year old daughter and she looses interest...DO NOT GET MAD AT HER. She is only one! I would tune you out after the first page and I am 29! I know you try very hard but you can not quit therapy. You need therapy! Your Mom is a little crazy, I will give you that. But C'mon...Be Nice!! And for the love!!...Please stop calling your Dad by his first name.

Dear Amber,

You are such a MESS! If I knew where you lived I would drive there and offer you every penny I have to let me adopt your daughter! The fact that you freaked out at Gary because he didn't want your stranger boyfriend changing Lea's diaper pretty much explains it all. Get off the freaking couch and play with your poor, cute, beautiful daughter . When I see her crying at the door and I see you yelling at her (from the couch) to stop....well...(that is the point I want to cut myself, throw something, pop my eyeballs out)
I could dedicate a entire post just to you...but...I am a classy lady! I actually have to stop thinking about you because I am getting so mad!!

So there you have it....judge away. I don't even care!
Thank You MTV for putting such quality programs on TV. Especially though my husband Thanks You!!

Guest Bedroom

In August Morgan and I went to Portland for a little Vacation. My boss was generous enough to give me a $500 bonus for working there for FIVE whole years. Awesome huh....So off to Portland we went. In Portland is one of my most favorites stores....WEST ELM.

This is where the post starts...
I had a empty bedroom
(Actually I had been waiting to turn this into a babies room. It wasn't really this
empty. I had thrown a bed in there. Well I was sick of waiting and needed
a project.)So it all started when my eyes landed on this...
WEST ELM $60

So I said to Morgan...I think we should give the guest room
a face lift.
So we bought this...
(At IKEA for only $89)

Added some books, cute little items I found at
Crate & Barrel (another favorite) and West Elm.
The Small vases were at Crate & Barrel for only 19.99 (set of 3)
and the rocks we found on the beach in Oregon on our 6th wedding anniversary.
The vase holding rocks is from West Elm for only $9.99 (On Sale)

The side tables and lamps I got from our bedroom. I painted the side tables white.
I like them so much better in this space.
The mirrors were found at IKEA (for $40 each) but painted to match.

I wanted to make the book shelf stand out a little more so I found
some wallpaper for $5 and lined the back. I think it adds a little somethin!
I actually found a roll of wallpaper that I fell in love with but it was...$389...
So I compromised.

The finished result...

So with Paint and Supplies this room makeover cost me about $350.
So Thanks Dr. Nelson!
It was totally worth it, because now instead of seeing a space that was always waiting...
I see a beautiful room!
So if anyone needs a place to crash once in a while...
your room is ready!

This day...

I am writing this with tears streaming down my cheeks. Today my Heavenly Father touched me on the shoulder and I felt him with me. I felt his gentle reminder that he is with me. I sometimes forget...often in fact. I forget that he knows me and that he knows my heart. I forget that sometimes I am a Daughter of God. Words that I was taught such a long time ago but never really thought they would play such a vital role in my life.
So this day...I remember...
I am a Daughter of God
I am a Women
a Wife
a Daughter
a Sister
a Friend
an Aunt!
I am rich with blessings!
My heart is so full with gratitude for my life. I complain so often and wonder why certain things don't happen for me. For that I am ashamed. For the times I have felt forgotten and unheard. I know that my Heavenly Father gives me those times for a purpose. To allow me to reflect and to get a small glimpse of the bigger picture. For that I am truly grateful!

Gratitude

Well I didn't do what I wanted to do the month of july. The month of July was a hard month for me...I found my old bitter self. She came back and stayed a while. I don't know how or what exactly snapped me out of it...I am just so grateful that I did.
Morgan and I had our sixth wedding anniversary on August 5th. We went to Portland for a week and stayed with some family. It was so nice to run away from our day to day life. I needed that break from myself!
Then when we got home our caseworker said it was that time of year that we needed to update all of our adoption records. Which made me really sad because it has been 2 years that we decided to try and adopt. When Morgan and I were sitting in our parenting classes we were listening to these couples that waited 1 year, 2 years, 3 years and we looked at each other and said, "That will not be us, This is going to happen." We were so confident that it would just be a matter of a SMALL amount of time.
We are still waiting!
My heart and mind are so full of thoughts right now that I just want to shout out to the world right now....I just don't know how to say them!

I am Grateful for.....

07.07.2010

1. That tomorrow is Thursday!

2. That after tomorrow I don't work until Monday.

3. That Tuesday my Rikki Mark is coming back to work!

Yea... it was one of those days!